Struggles of Transition

Holden Caulfield, like all of us, is at an awkward moment in life when adulthood is at his heels but he really want to be a kid still. I feel this way too. I'm trying to find a job, because it will be important to and will look good when I'm applying for jobs in the future, but I'm struggling. You have to be assertive, you have to be persistent to the point of being perceived as an..."annoying" person. And getting a job is a very adult thing, but I'm struggling. Half of me just wants to keep living off of allowance, desperately wishing there was a house project I could work on to pay of my debt to my mom. With school I feel the same way, I have two more years until college and I'm all on my...it's kind of scary and it freaks me out. So I'm struggling in ways similar to Holden, however I feel he is more adult than I am acting.
The reason I feel Holden acts like an adult, is because he is on his own. Though running away is childish, the fact that he knows where to go and has a general idea of what to do makes him seem mature. He also takes responsibility for some several of his actions; though his immediate responses are childish, when he thinks things over afterward he sort of admits that he was wrong (like when he lies to people). I think he's pushing himself towards adulthood, but he's still childish. He's still scared, but...I think he's trying to suppress that or something. Sometimes he acts mature, but the thoughts raging inside are sometimes childish, but I think he's close to acting like an adult. (though what adults act like adults? the majority I know act like kids ^ ^)